103

My eye's thudding
Might be my liver
The brow twitches
The lips quiver
The spine shivers
The brain figures
And the eyes see not reality
But only what they want

102

Engage! engage!
Go outside
It's a warm night
for winter
Engage! engage!
Touch somebody
Hug somebody
Fight somebody
Like somebody
Engage! engage!
Damage control real shit from the nineties
That's a band name
And are they any good?
Where have all the punk kids gone
If you write in a library it's too damn quiet
If you have to tune out loud shit
I mean real loud shit
You get to this point of absolute focus
If you want to read ..
Read at a metal show
Read Oscar Wilde at a punk show
Cause he's ... Wilde...
Then kiss somebody
Like his gravestone
Engage! engage!
You fools,
You kids!
You goblins
You ghouls
Engage! engage!
And don't drink the water
Albeit there be vodka
Wilde Wilde Wilde
Elmo tomatoes $1.99 today only
And only cause it's colder than we thought

101

Thursday

Were gonna go out
Cause it's Thursday
And im thirsty
Wear my jersey
Baby I love to see you
in my clothes
Like all those other
pretty ass hoes
Before you
What
You thought you were the only one?
But baby how could it be?
When you are someone like me?
Drops her drink
Raises her brow
Don't do that please
Don't ask me now
I'm having fun
Stop on your defense
I'm having fun
I'm gone/I'm done
Don't kill the buzz
Cause whatever we are
Will be a was
Maybe tomorrow
Or maybe never
If you're still there
in the morning time
I promise tomorrow will be better
I promise tomorrow
I'll be better
Somebody break my heart

100

Well you couldn't have it all
And you couldn't have some
And you couldn't have nothing
And you couldn't have none
So you weren't having any
And they knew it just as well
But you knew it even better
You always did...

099

she was only twenty three
but she looked like twenty nine
and she smelled like sixteen
and it could have been the wine
but she said with exhausted enthusiasm
i need a smoke, a drink and a line
or whatever (your thing is)
wrinkles 'round her eyes
they are sinking in this light
and they are matching in this night
to the ones on her mouth
kneel down
eyes closed
like a good girl
a very pretty girl
a fancy kind of lady
who can get away with shady
a heart made of stone
so shes always alone
but never in her bed
a very pretty girl
a fancy kind of lady
who could get away with shady
with the lights off
always/only with the lights off

098

I know a guy named Orlando who's sunnier than Florida

097

something's got to give change
please sir can i have some more?
more what? they ask
i do not know
just more of it
please sir can i have some more?
ms haversham's afraid of the sun
these kinds of sun are three:
sun light, sun flowers
and sons suns of bitches.
the thought of sun sends her to twitches.
and her best friend is elenor
they read and play cards in dim light
and they eat slices of lemon and mouse infested torte
you could never be late for tea:
she doesn't know what day it is,
she hasn't known all week
do not beat her with a bat
the hound will surely tell rat
so tie a big rock to your foot
and nosedive head first down the well
and if you should on your way down
make a wish you hadn't fell
and if your wish should so come true,
and if you so should survive I implore you,
to stay there
because the sky is down
the sky is down
Silver tea sets will be melted down
When the revolution comes to town

096

Glossy eyes
Thin thighs
This is what I fantasize
But now it's right in front of me
Oh baby sorry
I just can't see
#gone

095

That white top hat
That burning alert orange
That dust of grey
A tiny volcano
In the tips of my fingers
Errrrrrupt
But never exploding
Just a menacing uprising
Of smoke
That song I've heard a thousand times
And still the wind
Cuts through my pleather
And still
My fingers don't fing

"A wind and a car and a window and a cigarette"

094

Drink til I don't care what happens
Cry til my eyes are dry
Smilie til my face hurts
Smoke til my throats sore
Sleep til I can't no more
Read til my eyes close
Wait for the bus til my fingers froze
Grow my hair til it gets tangled
Play music til I make up my own jangle
Shower til it burns my skin
Sniff to the point of focus
Breathe til my lungs are full
Exhaling til I fall
Dizzy Dizzy Dizzy
Yah I'm extreme like that
That's why the tip doesn't count.

093

I had an idea for insomniacs,
it woke me in the middle of the night
in a moment of deluded brilliance,
that's it! I thought,
DRY THERAPY
Naturally, reading in bed helps me to fall asleep, so,
why not for an insomniatic episode?
I'm talking mild cases,
DRY THERAPY
Books of the driest content,
you know, boring,
something about rocks, or gesodomes,
well, unless you are into that stuff,
we'll try to find the driest content,
maybe just put together random pages of the encyclopedia and dictionary.
no pictures.
that should put you to sleep in no time...
but then why would you ever want to sleep?
there is always someone up doing something
and look how wonderful it sounds:

The state of mind where one becomes addicted to the deprivation of sleep caused by an epic revelation of joy.

turn the lights down, not off.

092

here are some constants you can rely on:

if your posture is wrong, your whole life is wrong.
if your hair is wrong, your whole life is wrong.
a stapler with no staples is no good.
no reason to stay is a good enough reason to go,
but no reason to go is not a good enough reason to stay.
especially if the music and conversation have dulled.
a hand job is better than no job at all.
i'm with Nietzsche on this:

family love is

messy, clinging..

and of an annoying, repetitive pattern;

like bad wallpaper.

I said I felt like painting something

"Start Small" they said.
why?
I want a BIG white space so i can draw all over it
at least then I'll know my limit.
what if i didnt have enough room?

that would be awful.  

But I guess for better or for worse, we adjust to the space we're put it in...
but when you get cramped, it's a noticeable push,
oh, oh, oh, ouch.
i love wallpaper.
even the ugly ones. I call it kitschy
what a lovely name for a cat..

 

091

In the morning it's too stale
In the evening it's too boozy
Call on me in the afternoon,
That's when breath smells best.

090

attaining pansophy
in certain lights, they'll pick at what they can see
but the sun never sets on the sunset channel
when violins are paper thin
and mouths pursed just so
to let the smoke get in
when the day shuts down and the night spreads open
a serry of penny pinchers
make the girls feel pretty
and then like dirt
just like their shirt teeth
that when you saw them at first
in certain lights
looked gleaming white
and then in some others
reveal to show, their true colours
spots of tar and
red wine stained
but on the sunset channel
it never rains
the sun never sets on the sunset channel
the sun's never warm on the sunset channel
red velvet drapes and red velvet waffles
that ought to make a cold bitch feel something  warm
i feel fine/nothing

089

boredom
breeds
frustration
breeds
anarchy
breeds
excitement
breeds
revolution
breeds
renaissance
breeds
stability
breeds
routine
breeds
boredom
breeds frustration
breeds anarchy
breeds excitement
breeds revolution
breeds renaissance
breeds stability
breeds routine
breeds boredom
breeds
frustration
breeds
anarchy
breeds
excitement
breeds
revolution
breeds
renaissance
breeds
stability
breeds
routine
breeds
boredom
breeds

!!!

088

there is something so,
mysterious
smokey
manly
lovely
addictive
poignant
musky
dangerous
rich
about clear brown liquids
don't you agree?

087

i am an artist writer designer person and I need love reognition money just like everyone else.


you know that thing about creative trades,
it's like,
oh why don't you start out small,
like a photographer
you start out at weddings..
or like, you intern for some big magazine or fashion house.. but..
why don't you start out getting coffees for everyone
hmm?? be a good team player and get the cars washed...?
we'll maybe should reconsider not starting as those things
and start like, a bit bigger
and build it up from there
but be prepared to fall ]-[/\R|)
because unless you're some prodigy, you will probably suck
but that's ok.
it's expected. SUCK! learn something. be bad at something and see how you can be good. 
at least you're sucking and learning
and not sucking..well...you know.
there's a fine line between doing what it takes and doing whatever it takes.
there is still something to be said for integrity
if you cared about that.
but...
just don't go in there serving coffees.
not that there's anything wrong with that..
but you only have so much time so,
you should try and aim a little higher..
even if its not ideal or comfortable for a while.
it's gonna take time..
oh but don't just go start some website and expect people to read it.
because they probably won't
well they might.
but probably not.
and you've got to work with people 
love them! 
you are only as good as your ideas. but you could be so much better with someone elses.
but never share your secrets. especially about where you get really cool shit from. that between you and your Sunday morning hangover .

so not to deter from the initial thought, if you want to be a photographer, i mean a reeeeal photographer, or whatever it is...a reeeeeeal something..take some risks and move somewhere that that will happen. probably New York or something where there is resources and people for that.

but do keep in mind, the average actors salary in America is $600 a year.

086

I wanted to say,
i WANTED TO SAY
something nice
today
about a man
named JFK
jr.



there he is, reading a newspaper
and there he isn't being read in a newspaper
it's kind of like,
there you are, doing something ordinary
and then you're not
i think JFK would have wanted us to read more
and dress like his wife, Jackie o,
shades = good. hair = never.

well i meant to say something nice.
maybe tomorrow,
RIP JFK
jr.

085

when you don't have much to push out of your brain,
but you need to get the 'job' done
what should you do?
should you force it out?
push the ideas?
no. because then you are over thinking.
and then you will make your brain think stupid thoughts.
it will do this on purpose to mock you.
do not force the brain.
like you should not force the poop.
be cool. cool brain. cool poop.
all win win win.

084

it was one of those nights,
it was one of those nights where
you could only appreciate where you were
when you'd thought about where you'd been
probably somewhere in that fuzzy morning after,

083

Sometimes I do drugs
Sometimes I live vicariously through others' experiences:

"we both ate
acid
she threw up
in the front seat
next to me
cause she ate something
bad
i wanted to help her
but she was a
robotic dinosaur
she was bent over
cause she was getting sick
and her back was full of
spikes
i wanted to help her
but she was spiky
how could I help a spiky robotic dinosaur?!
now that I think about it, I
feel kind of
bad
have you ever tried 'shrooms?
No. I'm allergic to mushrooms.."

082

I bet you miss those good old days
Those days when everyone was your friend
It's harder now
Isnt it?
To get what you want
Everything was on speed dial
Now your list is dwindling
I bet you miss New York
where
Everything was shiny
And dreamy
And steamy
And new
Now back home your dreams
Are
Covered in gum scum and street scum
And subway echoes
And runoff
You were a somebody
You still are a somebody
But no body knows
No
Body
Knows
But I do

081

this summer-like weather had me thinking about the summer that just ended or seemed like it had,
rainy, hot, and never bad,
i thought to write something that would sum it all up
but i thought to make this little video instead.
and what else more to say?
well, i guess of what we did,
we danced a lot
because we heard that somewhere
sitting at a desk all day
makes you fat
so now we are fit, except we probably got our calories back in
burgers and beers;
summmmer, summerrrrr,
who could make it or break it?
good friends that never fake it,
the ones that make your memories and forget them with you
[but thats what photos are for]
we smell sweat and wet streets and wine sitting out all night and opened
tastes now like vinegar
we heard good tunes and bad tunes,
we thought of million dollar ideas
turned champagne rings into jewelry things
couch surfed and
balcony hopped
and smoked a lot
wore open toe shoes, even on the cold nights
slept in the same clothes for three days straight
borrowed toothbrushes and used too much toiletpaper
sat on park benches
and pre-drank before the pre-drink
wine bottles in the car
don't worry, its parked
never once paid for a parking meter ticket,
well perhaps maybe once,
and sometimes we ended up paying double
but some young punks will tell you its fun getting into trouble,
we acted like rockstars, and pointed out bad outfits,
gave each other bad hair cuts and called it 'hipster-fantastic'
im sure there were a lot of other things we did and coulda done,
but we'll leave those for next year...
summers through, BRO
and i can say this with honesty:

i 'aint never got a tan

"YO! CAN I BORROW THAT FLASHLIGHT?"

080

Ever wonder what happened to the kids on the Connect Four box?
They died,
because they tried to connect five.
It was just too much.

079

mauve eyes
red lips
brown hair
pulled back
she wants a pillow fight
with feathers
she can wear the lace or,
she can wear the leather,
or she can wear nothing at all,
which ever what ever you think is best or better,
is good enough for her tonight,
nothing better
than
cuddle weather
sans boots, sans sweater,
and it's minus a hundred and six outside
but indoors it's gon' be hot
all night
and tight
all night
she's only happy
when you're making in rain..

078

This one goes out to all the complainers with first world problems.
STFU and do something.
You don't have fun because you don't know how to.
STFU and dance.
You're bored because your boring.
STFU and play.
You have lame friends cause you attract them.
STFU and meet people you don't know.
Your fat cause you eat crap.
STFU and eat a vegetable.
I bet you can't get what you want, come on baby, come on sugar,
I bet you can't get what you need, come on baby, come on sugar,
and try.

077

Imagine a world with
no Facebook
no cell phones
no twitter
no GPS tracking
no Bbm or whatsapp
[people from the future will read this and laugh at our menial technology,]
[people from the past will read this and say that shits whack]
Imagine the amazing real face to face conversations we could have
I can see you smile and sweat and flinch and breathe
Without distractions
Imagine
No pointless drama
Imagine how much work would get done

“It’s not what your are, it’s what you don’t become that hurts.” — Oscar Lavant

076

She would do anything for him,
But he, for her, would not.

075

 I never want to get old. But some days I feel like dying...

Watch the 10 part "Time Capsule" by Steven Klein

074

Fake it till you make it
But if you don't make it
Stop faking it
Cause then you just look like an asshole.