Sunday, March 25, 2012

121

On yellow paper it happens
On yellow paper pens cry
And sweat and kiss the lines
On yellow paper
The pen goes frantic
Drawing lines through words we dare not even let our own eyes read
On yellow paper
It happens
The ink trails to show a trail of thought
On yellow paper the pen waits patiently in your hand
As you look to it
It's trembles with electricity of all the untied words swimming in your head and in your heart and through your arms and eyes and toes
'No body knows' you think
'What I do'
And it happens on yellow paper
That you read it back and know
You know nothing either
But that empty silence and that 60 watt lightbulb
Sometimes our expectations are betrayed by numbers
Sometimes impossible to assign rational value to him her them
Or what we feel for either
But we can count the lines
On the table
On the paper
On the paper on the table
Smooth ink smooth paper smooth thoughts...
?
Crinkled piles is what it is
If you can't say it, write it
And if you can't write it, write it anyway

Monday, March 12, 2012

120

Diamond lady
Falls asleep
Toes fall creep
Curtains that keep
The light out
Diamond lady
They made their bed and in it
Spoke without speaking
Taught without teaching
Fingers, lips creeping
It was made for the keeping
Yeah, diamond lady
They put drinks in their mouths
And bullets in their heads
From lovin' that spilled
All over the bed
And onto the floor
And straight through the door
At one time they came through
at one time together
But not anymore
Diamond lady
A head full of rocks
Diamond lady
A heart made of stone
Diamond lady
Not so pretty, not so shiny, not so forever anymore
Diamond lady
She'll cut you so tiny you won't even notice
Til one day you've turned into dust
Down to the bone and into your soul turning sweet memories into rust
Ohhh diamond lady
You'll always be alone
And to you she will say
diamonds shine brighter in the dark..


Friday, March 2, 2012

118

a NYC special
i know you heard it all before
i cant tell you anything new about New York
except the impression on me
we did it worse, but we did it first
tree lined highways
cobra vodka
cotton candy piles and pussy hats
everything is purple
that bridge crossing a body of water of happiness
a feeling of uplifted clean
as we made our way to the heart of that gritty city
everything dirty but so interesting
pink hair naked lines trash culture shoe repair
they all just people, we all poop in a trailer
puffy bagels and cream cheese with jam
afternoon teas
in sunny rooms
55th 360 rooftop views
all those itty bitty lights
i wished they were white
a place like this, this place like this, makes you feel so nice
so small and unimportant
it's just how i like
to feel,
how could it be so new on the eyes, yet so old in the books
and something picture worthy in tiny hidden nooks
so old yet so new
like wet paint that's chipped
i forgot all the things i thought mattered
they don't here
they didn't there
no one cares about you
and its uncomfortably comforting
but not even a place like this could make me hard
five years and first loves
new friends to maintain the buzz
stoner talks and sunlight walks
on cobblestone streets
the smell of meats mix with the fumes of banana taxi cabs
we shouldn't eat out but we couldn't help it
bought gifts for the wrapping only
saw day light attractions at night
and night time attractions in the day
brought lots of clothes but wore the same outfit
pizza tastes better after taxi chasing and long walks in high heels
those songs from our teenage years
belting em out between sips of beers and tequila
sounded so much better this time around
if you were looking for something that couldn't be found
it's here it's here
everything is here

















117

lies longer than her eye lashes
faker than Barbie's waist
in a rough shape was she
a hexagon with seven sides rough
i found a good song
but then i found i better one
so i played that over and over
until it didn't sound good
then i remembered the song i found first
and played that one,
but only just once
BarbieGon - half monster half woman (all monster?)
the latest useless plastic attraction coming from an imagination near you!